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Last year was crazy. That was the first year in my life ever that everything became apparent, it was the first time of my life where I really realize that girl these life lessons were building up to something. It wasn’t just something simple. It was the first time where I looked at myself and I said oh my God this whole time I basically been around the same person just in different bodies and sometimes this whole spirit would be in someone who is my neighbor who I let become my friend

Sometimes we’ll be in a coworker or a romantic interest

But this year I looked back and I really really did the work of looking back on everything last year. I looked back and I really really did the work on looking back and really reminiscing. Not just on the particular situation with my pending charge, but also I had to look back on everybody I’ve ever met that made a significant mark on my life.

I’m talking about our friends, family members, coworkers exes, relationship relationships, and started to see a pattern

I started to notice that there were people who had para social relationships with me, para, social beast with me and para social, romantic relationships with me, and I didn’t understand what the heck was happening until these words became a part of my vocabulary

Then I started to notice the toxic relationships in my life again this wasn’t a word that was in my life. 

So tear of the  Tea matter is I realize that there were so many different relationships and relationship dynamics that I never even got into I realize that I keep getting into the same different types of relationships with the same person so I had to go and really do a link back and I’m definitely gonna do a video of it and update this blog

The relationship is of someone who is narcissistic someone who is unavailable emotionally, who I have to work behind after the show proof of my love

And I realize that this relationship is a relationship that I had with my parents were one moment it would be great. I’ll get Love bombed. I get high accolades but then the next minute I have to change my personality my mood while deep down on the inside I loved who I was, I love the nerdiness. I love the tomboy. I love the curliness. I have everything I could be super hyper feminine or super chill tomboy. I learned that from watching Aaliyah.

But I realize I have too many people trying to get all up in my grill about who I was because they were uncomfortable with themselves, so they rejected me and rejected their own flaws, personality issues, and resentment towards themselves onto me

I called this project. I don’t like myself, so I’m not gonna like you being you, and for years, I was caught up in that project. I was even a member of the board, confused because I was elected in, but I shouldn’t have been on the board, and I shouldn’t have been in on the gossip in the hot tea. However, I was in on it, and I was like oh my God, girl, what are we doing? 

But this is something that happens to a lot of authentic people, who are genuine, who are loving, who are kind, who have a bigger purpose in a bigger mission. Don’t get the fact that you’re going through a lot of things in life and you’re trying to battle the interview and being it outwardly, but you’re battling with other people about who you are as a message of you should just give up.

Forgive me for 1 million run-on sentences but this is a point I’m talking to you and letting you know that life is a run-on sentence things go on and on and on like an Aaliyah track because we’re all one in 1 million however we’re forced to think that we’re supposed to be conflicted we’re forced to think we’re supposed to be the same and put in a bubble because everybody else does it this way so we should do it that way everybody else wears this so I should wear that too. I should wear the trending topic. I should have the trending clothes or shoes or cars or I should be like this because this person is getting what I want which is the attention but we’re not even thinking about the childhood traumas and wounds that we’re going through the things that caused us to make us feel like we’re inferior. 

Don’t get it twisted yes I know that these could be Mother Father wounds anti wounds are a ton of different wounds that we’ve had since we were a child and so it’s easy for us to say well I have these wounds. It’s their fault but it’s not their fault because at some point, you have to heal find out what the problem is and with the root of the issue is and then squared by three.

What I mean is you have to multiply division you know how you’re using binoculars or a magnifying glass and you zoom in to find out what the actual creature or thing is under the microscope that’s what you have to do with your trauma

You have to zoom in you have to do the work you have to figure out what is that creepy thing that is inside this microscope and how is it essential to the DNA makeup that made me who I am

It’s crazy Work. I’m not even gonna lie to you. It is crazy, but I started to think about the people who I’ve showed my vision to two and who I showed my goals to and they nitpick that they said you talk too much. Your sentence are too long. This is too crazy. That is too crazy. They read it and they were jealous. Some people who said things that would be like that’s weird. I wouldn’t do that than a year or two years later or a month later or even waiting until I leave a month later and starting the same thing with my idea and my goals and even my logo and this happens to many people who are creative, who are original, but guess what? 

Guess what guess spooky butt

You are you and you’re made in your own personal customize authentic one of a kind action figure that represents you kind of like Stranger Things when you know who gave the action figure to his little sister to represent who she was and at first, she didn’t feel like that, but then eventually this Stranger Things became the leader that she always was meant to be. It was like a prophecy. 

The truth is, we have a lot of people who invest in us and we just don’t see it. We have a lot of things that show us the way whether there be a plate of grass growing against all God odds for us whether it be a store that was there for years all of a sudden going out of business but then in its place something else comes up whether it be a store that’s been out of business for 20 years and all of a sudden a new store emerges whether it be over the last 10 years you started a hobby that you didn’t even know was a hobby then next thing you know, it becomes a brand and a business slow slowly, but surely because you’ve watered into it, despite the fact that people thought you were weird and crazy and odd 

Your goal is to not give up your goal is to be you your goal is to understand that you’re supposed to be weird. You’re supposed to be strange. You’re supposed to be different because when you’re the same, you’re just a clone you’re a minion. You’re just like Nicki Minaj would say before all of this debacle came along. All these witches are my sons. I just tried to clean it up. I didn’t want to be that Person

Reality is we have these beefs that aren’t essential to who we are with other people that we take on as our own beef with ourselves we put ourselves up and we feel like it’s weird to be strange. It’s weird to be different. It’s weird to be who we are, but these are traumas from childhood these are traumas from our day-to-day life, and these are traumas that we make our inner voice this time I challenge you in 2026 to make your inner voice different to remember that child who was uncovered uninhibited and carefree whether it was for two seconds or 15 years remember that kid who like to play with those weird toys remember that kid who had that 10 minutes of just feeling freedom and just make that last yes you’re gonna have to be adult. Yes you’re gonna have to go through adulting yes sometimes adulting may have to restart all over again 20 million times until you figure out the basics but it’s cool to be weird because it’s 20 million other people who need a person like you to be the leader to say you know what I suck at adulting but I finally figured it out and now I’ve transitioned into something else you might not be like everybody else and that’s a fact in fact, you’re definitely not like everyone else and there are strange things to other people that are distinctly great character habits for you that other people would think are flaws but you learn how to work around it. Build on that make yourself better make yourself stronger. Don’t be afraid to be yourself.