Dear Diary Let her cook

 in this season, I need us to speak louder fam. I need us to run with the wind. I need us to be OK with being a alone wolf or having our try be consolidated down to our family that is immediate and a few close people who really we consider family. I need us to understand that our dreams our goals are purpose. Our ambition is not just a thought, it is our family. It is our heartbeat. It is a part of our connection with God. This is important to our purpose so sometimes in life when we’re creating, and we’re cooking in that kitchen of ideas, we need to adapt the goal for us to be alone in that kitchen.

This reminds me of when My adopted mother will come to visit me and she would cook in the kitchen and she would say she wanted to be alone in the kitchen. I didn’t really understand that philosophy until one day I was cooking a big meal and I started to notice that my kids would keep coming in and out the kitchen my spouse will keep coming in and out the kitchen and I was like oh my goodness I just want to get this done because I know that they’re trying to figure out what I’m cooking so they can have a little piece of it. And I thought about this what if that’s the whole idea for God to get us in isolation so we can really cook so we can really make them ingredients come to use. 

It’s like going shopping for Food at 12 AM for a whole house for a whole month hungry as heck because you finally got paid. Trust me I know that because I’ve done it plenty of times with my kids. We literally were just going over this. I realized that I would get a bunch of stuff I didn’t need or I would get distracted and then when I looked back, I was like wait a minute that wasn’t even in my budget because I didn’t even come in with a list because I was so distracted. Listen to Me when I tell you, it is hard going shopping with yourself your two kids and your spouse when you’re going through all of this other stuff and you’re tired and you’re hungry and you didn’t bring a list with you and you need to because it helps you think better. 

I think about what my Adopted mother told me about how she makes her grocery list. She makes it according to her store. She would walk around the store sometimes for an hour an hour and a half just so she can scope out and survey how the store looks. I honestly thought back then that was crazy right until I realize how my brain works and I realize that there are other people’s brain that work like that sometimes you need to be familiar and you need to be in order and everything has to be organized so you can know what you’re going into sometimes you need to be. In a place of familiarity so you feel that peace so you can go and do what you’re supposed to do with your purposes. This is what ties me back to having the ability to cook in the kitchen by yourself in your life. Sometimes you’re gonna go through trials and tribulation so God can show you things and if you keep the people around you that are keeping you in situations where you have trials and tribulations God‘s gonna keep making it uncomfortable and not just uncomfortable so you can get out of that situation but uncomfortable so you don’t wanna go back in. The problem is sometimes we have too many chefs, but not enough cooks in our kitchen not enough people to say look I need to get this done. I need to get that done. I’m gonna make this recipe by myself because we get so comfortable with the help we get so comfortable with the distractions with the chaos. We’re not realizing it at the moment, but really we’re supposed to be using that chaos to amplify us to get to a better version of ourselves. Sometimes God will take you out of a situation. That is a good one, but it has chaos with it and it has too many details and too many things to get worked out separately to bring you back in sometimes God will give you ingredients and then take them away and make you cook with a bare minimum so that way you realize that your pallet has to change that he had to even amplify the taste of the ingredients before it came back, so you can really make the real recipe that can feed the multitude in gratitude and humility and humbleness enjoy and peace. It takes a lot of work to do that. It takes a lot of inner knowing it takes a lot of understanding that you know who you are and you’re fine with that and that’s how you make a real stew.