Dear The Before and After
Dear fam ,
Hey fam hey
I have had many jobs in my life on this assignment of BECOMING…This assignment is about my Father’s business. Literally ,Spiritually, and Metaphorically.Through this assignment I have learned so many things and I want to share them throughout this blog. These are meaningful messages from me the bee of love honesty encouragement and the RAWHHH TRUTH. You might ask who I spellled it like that but if you know you know .
So fam let’s get back to the topic at had IE : TODAYS MESSAGE,
The Before and after LIFE PICTURE IS…
We Fall DOWN BUT WE GET UP
It’s more than just a few pictures it the journey
🥜In 2024 I got to the point in my life I felt like I graduated in my journey. I saw a change in myself in my looks, my confidence, my personality, my Health,hair growth and so much more.
You see I did a BIG HAIR CHOP FOR THE MILLIONTH TIME A FEW YEARS PRIOR and so I was proud of the growth. It was not just about the hair. I never told the true story behind the story. Many times even as a kid I grew up my hair really long. But for the most part, I would just do a big job, but not too. As an adult, I started cutting my hair myself when I was younger, but there were the last two cuts that really did something to me. You see during the times I was going through a lot of things mentally spiritually emotionally. So I did my first big job, which was really hard for me, but when I did that big job, I put a permit because at first I wanted to go and try to do a natural journey, but it didn’t work out . I was still walking to work as a Sub, substitute Teacher and taking our jobs here and now working on my journey as a podcast in a blogger, and even doing some online teaching and Tutoring. I was also going through school walking multiple jobs at the same time and I got my degree in business. I was super stressed out in my relationship and working living in public housing while trying to figure out how everything goes with 1 million different inspections, school assignments and things that I had to do because I was a mother of two children with learning issues Just like me. And it’s a beautiful blessing because we learned things different. We think things differently and each of our learning experiences are different and I learned how to navigate that through the help of the teachers that were so wonderful at being the helpers.
However, during this time, I still was extremely overwhelmed and once my hair grew back, I went through a big crisis you see I had almost died from Covid in 2022. I went through a tremendous amount of stress in my relationship that same year my mom almost died that same year and my relationship Was going through a lot of turmoil so as a nervous breakdown, I cut my hair. And I freaked out, but my family embrace me. My Spouse at the time embrace me and it was crazy because they’re at the same time. I had to go visit my mom in Florida and when I cut my hair, she looked at me like I was some type of alien. She already had issues with my hair, always talking about it when it was in its natural state even when she came to visit me, she would talk about it, and I made it perfectly clear that I was fine with my natural hair finally standing up for myself finally saying, I love my Afro even my daughter would say she wanted her hair just like me and my students would say the same thing
So in 2024 hit I posted multiple before and after pictures of my hair roof process I weight loss journey process and just showing people where I was. It wasn’t about the picture and bragging to people It really was me finally saying hello world it is me and I’m proud of myself because I stood up for myself all these years I was afraid, but I still had to be bold faced adversity speak for the trees say how I felt but certain subjects I would hide I would hide myself I would hide I would hide The reason why I’m really putting infants on this word high is because there were so many different journeys that I had to unlock through facing challenges and adversity and real trauma just to fight to get to where I was When I finally start posting these pictures, it was me coming out of the closet. It was almost like a gay person coming out, but it was different. It was when you go through so much trauma and it teaches you to be inside and never do you ever have someone say you look beautiful you look good you look smart. You have to be the person to beat yourself up your Own best friend and that’s what I was doing that and I didn’t even know it. I was too busy admiring other people than what they did and trying to just live my journey. It wasn’t until I went through 1 million different things afterwards that I realized that I was building myself up.
During this time I started going live more and that was a big thing for me on my artistic journey because it was just me telling my voice to some millionaires and billionaires and thousand errors who’ve been going online for years that wasn’t a big deal but for me it was because I didn’t even like being on camera for real like as far as video I would take a few cute Moving But 2024 marked my journey of being a photographer I always wanted to be, but finally I was able to draw more and write more and take more pictures and make more videos and do our lives and interview more people in 2023 really helped that I feel like the whole catalyst for this journey was me going through 1 million different things and having 1 billion different catalyst to launch me to different points in my life. It wasn’t one particular incident because we’ve been working on this since I was a child, it was many different things that sparked many different journeys and many different assignments that God Had me all to help myself and the people around me
These pictures that I’ve taken, I’m going to mark them and draw them and make them my own particular magazine and comic book strip with different types of blogs and these are important because it shows that you can go through 1 million different things in your life and still smile and still feel the blessings that God gives you sometimes you’ll be feeling sad, devastated, depressed, but then you have to realize that there are people there putting places to tell you to smile and you can’t just look at it like it’s annoying or like they’re trying to hide your plane you have to remember to fix your perception and realize that God brought you here for Reason and everything that you’re going through all the terminal and the pain is just for a season.
Remember that there are people who have debilitating life-threatening diseases who deal with them every day and smile, but they go through bad times they go through tears and crying and losses of themselves and humiliation rituals, and things that they go through where they lose people, family members or activities that they love because maybe they can’t do them the same way however their ability to overcome things is so inspiring and sometimes we have heroes like that right there in front of us children who go through getting bullied and getting back up again adults who go through many different life-threatening, illnesses or domestic violence like myself and who get We fall down, but we get up see the point of this whole episode. Was we fall down but we get up
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