IF YOUR LOVE LIFE WEIRD YUR NT ALONE

Hey fam hey,

Dear diary, this is blurred in the city dating in the summer and a lot of weirdness in the fall winter spring and all the other jazz listen let me tell you when I speak about dating in the last few years of my life and I mean the last 15 to 20 years, which is basically my whole dating life it is weird. Between weird relationships and break ups that didn’t seem like they were even going to happen ever in life. The dysfunction the mental physical and emotional abuse, and sometimes weight gain, and weight loss because of the fact that you. I’m so stressed out over relationship things are weird. There are other weird things that happened in life like the awkward first date when you really don’t know what to say but you think you know what to say because you didn’t get yourself all dressed up girl are you home was like yeah you look good today you got it you got to do your big one it’s so you got this Alfarone hair done nails and everything done Slade or at least it’s late enough for you to get through this process and you got a chance to give yourself a big breath and a half five. You got everything ready because you want this day to be perfect. I mean perfect and I’m talking about self experiences. I mean you playing these days you got the outfit ready you messed around was already pregnant. Why you say I mean this is for the females if you’re a man let’s. Pretend like you’re pregnant as well because maybe you’re pregnant with your goals or ambition anymore and you sitting here on this first day you don’t got all the food ready you went out to where you got off work he went to the store. I got some last minute touches and why do you have to walk there and get a ride back-and-forth to work and now you’re realizing that your day is not even interested in you and you look good for a pregnant person I’m just saying.

What are you doing? You got to give yourself your flowers and realize that it’s not on you what about going on a date for the first time with the person you’ve been dating? A very long time a very long time a very long time and the truth is you never really went on a real real day and so are you going to real real date and this person show you the world and you run away screaming because you’re like way to me you hated me the world and all I would it was a purple it’s crazy or someone who actually goes out of date with you give you the bare minimum but then when you decide to get more comfortable with it is that I’ll snap you really do look good for real it’s weird dating is weird or what about when you meet somebody in at first you click and then after about two more days she realized wait a minute you click because that was the light switch that you just turned off of when you turned that light back on you realize you meant Freddie cougar them

Or what about when you go on dating websites I don’t know about you, but I’ve been on dating websites for quite a bit. My first introduction to dating websites was American instant messenger then it was BlackPlanet and I thought Black palette was my GM no peanut butter and I’ve met a few people interesting people and you know what you call somebody interesting you know what that means that Means shade, but no shade in a Nicki Minaj voice I mean I met some interesting people and black lady and some of them. I really like some of them are really crushed one and then there was the people that I met on the voice chat you know back in the day we used to call that one 800 number and you can talk on the phone line and we talked a little people and he felt like he was getting on this date a boy sound sexy and the next thing you know their picture and you’re a hoe OK OK I can work with this but then you never ever meet them in real life because you like what if they really who they say they are

I said this to say that I got my feet wet I walked a few payments to meet a lot of people on different websites and some of them. I didn’t read all the way through or meet them in person there’s a lot I mean a lot if you got to meet in person a lot of messages I didn’t answer because I just didn’t feel like it was right or maybe I wasn’t over an ex at the time. The one thing I know about dating is whether you’re in a long-term relationship where you called at your bootleg husband, or your bootleg wife or you’re in a short term relationship or you have a link whatever the case may be when you’re dating and it’s online or any type of relationship things get weird but don’t think that’s a reflection of you or even then sometimes you’re in weird places in your life.

What do things I’ve learned is you have to realize that everybody has a match and this is a very big universe very big and so nobody’s perfect. If every pork chop were perfect we would have hotdogs like Steven universe would say, and Love and relationships and everything around it is an ever-growing door. People have to have relationships with them selves first and that’s what I love is so weird so fickle it’s a living entity and people are going through different moments individually before they can really come together and give you their all and make a unit.

Don’t be hard on yourself dating takes time. Things are weird and just because your ex might have hurt you or someone you’re with may have hurt you doesn’t mean they’re a bad person maybe they’re in a bad place they need time to heal. Pray for them forgive them and acknowledge what goes on tell them how you feel and forgive them not for them but for yourself so you can keep moving your life learn from their mistakes because sometimes when you’re reading somebody you’re meeting them in a very raw, crazy state and a tendency for people is to meet someone when they’re mirroring something when they need to heal from something or when they need to grow or when this person is an elevated state and they’re wanting to bring you up and you’re ready to elevate as well.